monkeys with tarter sauce™

Creeque Alley

2010-11-06T23:39:00.002+08:00

It has been already a while since, and I have truly lost the interest in babbling and mutter much of daily non-extraordinairy mumbles of life.

I had a great celebration of being older recently although I had no expectation and therefore it was a good surprise after all. If you have been a friend of mine over facebook you may be seeing photos of the celebration.

This week however has been pretty much unproductive besides more done on wasting money and eating out a whole lot. There you go, I have lost the train of thoughts and is going blank and have nothing else interesting to bitch about for tonight besides being all alone in hostel and hearing the fan and the clock ticking.

Hopefully tomorrow will be more exciting. Sigh.

Bewitched, Bothered and Bewildered

2010-10-19T11:41:00.002+08:00

I have lost the motivation to write now that knowing my name is easily google-able and the invasion of personal privacy is just absolute nightmare. Even so, the urge to for these fingers to dance on the keyboard is still strong.

I have not been typing, or even tryping (trying to type) as this semester has been long and dreadfully busy. And I can't bitch as much as I rather keep it to myself and not announce to the world about my never-ending misery about some stuff that was going on and had happened over the period of 5 months. Or at least right after I came back from Obamaland for that 3-weeks sponsored travel for my volunteering activities.

See, I'm not spoilt brat. I'm just gifted for some work I do in life. I still don't understand why on bloody earth would that anonymous spoil my Chat Box over the right side of this page.

I went to the gym yesterday to re-register again. I thought it was a wise decision as I needed the swimming pool there. I need to counter my fear and learn to swim, and no point to drown all over again. Obviously it became a challenge after almost 5-month long of absence and today I am all in pain. I do miss running and running in gym is not the same as running outdoor. I get to watch MTV!

Do note that I'm entertainmently challenged since I possess no television in my hostel room. It was fun. Also I was a bit demotivated to se overly muscular people there but well, I should just ignore those stuff. I'm actually happy resuming my healthy life again and although it can be costly in the future considering the fact my studies will end and I will no longer live under the means of my loan pocket money, I shall probably get a job then to sustain myself in the future.

Gosh, in less than a month I will be an adult. And even before that happen I already have so many obligations in life to fulfill.

Gasp!

Rainbow Veins

2010-10-15T02:51:00.003+08:00

"Verify, His Command, when He intends a a thing, is only that He say to it, "Be", and it is!" (Yāʾ Sīn 36:82)

Sunrise Sunset

2010-09-13T11:34:00.002+08:00

I am such an awful writer and I began to more and more dislike describing daily life stories.

Aidilfitri has not been that great, and we don't have open house or much on visitings either.

The holiday is too short, and I am going out with Alan after this. He happened to be a blog friend back then in high school and we finally met up during SunBurst 09. A very exciting and happening socialite.

I should be packing my stuff and go back to KL because Sheesha will be leaving to UK on Wednesday and I must send her off again. Previously it was bound to Perth but that was not the right place for her. And a million things to do this week.

When I'm busy, I wish I had some free time. And when I have nothing else in this world to do I wish I was busy.

Bleh.

Eid Mubarak everyone.

Peacock

2010-09-06T02:35:00.002+08:00

I am currently procrastinating.

I scored the lowest in the PR Practice quiz, which astonished the lecturer as I have always excelled in class. However, there will be another chance to retake the quiz tomorrow.

Obviously I am supposed to study it now, but I got too distracted over Airline Manager game on the ultimatum evilness of Facebook.

Irregardless, I shall continue, or go to bed now. Or might not be able to wake up for sahur too.

I have a long whining to do.

After all, according to no name on the shout box over the right side of the blog I am a spoilt brat and love to brag.

So here me roar. Will brag about my other whine whenever I feel like so.

Till There Was You

2010-09-05T02:45:00.003+08:00

I just realized the excitement of blogging and truly miss it,

but I will write more.

Maybe tomorrow, or the day after tomorrow.

It has been a while since these fingers last danced on the slippery keyboard. It requires some training and warming up.

Burn Your Life Down

2010-08-31T00:30:00.002+08:00

I don't care for the celebration.

There is still racism, hatred and envy.

No point.

Selamat Hari Merdeka, to the hopeful ones.

Battlefield

2010-08-29T20:07:00.002+08:00

I am back.

Again..

and it has been such a turbulence of everything, since the last time I ever wrote anything.

Perhaps the whole category on "Complication" does gave a domino effect entirely.

Ain't No Sunshine

2010-07-28T00:51:00.002+08:00

It has been a while since I've keyed anything here.

And there has been certain parties accusing me being spoilt brat. Ha.. Ha..

And I keep getting random rubbish, scam, porn-link comments and wish those people would just die than wasting my inbox spaces .

P/S: USA was amazing.

1,2 Step

2010-06-04T22:12:00.003+08:00

KUL>BKK>LHR>DEN>TUL>ORD>DCA-IAD>LHR>BKK>KUL

Yna

CRJ is made from a company called bombardier

10:08

yg buat lrt kita tu

10:08

kira u naik lrt ah ni

10:08

lrt terbang

MSN

10:08

ooohhhh

Yna

MSN

10:08

JAJAJAJAJA

10:08

u jangan sampai i cari u kt kolej u nak kena cekik apa

Wheeeeeeeeee!

The Show

2010-05-28T22:45:00.002+08:00

This place is very dusty.

Maybe I should start writing more, so I could channel all the anger and happiness combined.

The good news? Remember this old piece that didn't work out? This time it is happening.

Wheeeeeeee~

Bust Your Window

2010-05-15T01:49:00.001+08:00

gLee flashmob by random alphabets was awesome.

i've met the best gLeeks in the country, maybe in the world. and through #gleekl twitter as well.

you can google the videos, and look it up on Star World advertisement as well. I'd be the one wearing purple. photos are all over random alphabets albums.

and the things that happened in between was not.

it was all fun, but honestly there has been some misery that took placed in between.

i'm such a big jerk.

with someone i thought was special all these while.

now i've lost it.

Don't Stop Believing

2010-05-07T02:28:00.001+08:00

I have been heavily occupied with Glee Flashmob Dance : KL Chapter by Random Alphabets.

It makes me happy, at least. =)

Its going to happen this Saturday.

Time: 2pm.

Location: Unknown.

Keep yourself updated on www.gleeflashmobdance.com.my.

Its gonna be hellotafun!

Come and watch me dance!

Cherry Tree Carol

2010-05-03T23:22:00.002+08:00

It has been a week plus since I last wrote anything here. Temper tantrums mixed with random emotional breakdown.

With GLEE, I came back.

Last week was like a roller coaster. Ups and downs.

Will do more job search this week.

My training shoe is torn. I almost went moody. Then again, I realized some hardware shop might have the glue to fix it.

The weekend went awesome, with picnic and fruitful meeting with fellow alumni.

Now, busy week ahead.

Will write more, when I have the time.

I'm going to Random Alphabets GLEE Flashmob Dance : KL Chapter. Are you?

Teardrops on My Guitar

2010-04-26T19:26:00.003+08:00

My mum's birthday was on Saturday. I wish I was home with her.

My host dad in Oklahoma also celebrated his birthday the same day as my mum. Except he is on the other side of the world. I wish to be with him too.

Sometime you just will never get what you want in life. You plan, plan and plan but only The Almighty decides.

I feel demotivated, as my never ending struggle with studies goes I strive to get the best grades. While I know some people who get good grades they would then get some kind of gift from their parents, I was bound to expect nothing even if I already have the best grades so far.

Still I should thank them for the emergency moments they are available to fork in some penny for me.

But then again, its depressing to know all these years, its still a struggle of which I may just not want to explain more in details.

Money is evil.

Sigh.

I need a hug.

I'm Gonna Getcha Good

2010-04-23T18:41:00.002+08:00

Me and the KTM Komuter has this love-hate relationship;

I regularly take it to Midvalley, once the only civilization I rely on to run away from college
The gym, which I go to, in attempt to gain some weight and loose the fugly belly which doesn't match skinny body
To wherever else but here

However, regardless of how many times I scream, shout, push, bitch, tweet, FB-ed it, nothing will ever change.

Today the Komuter didn't come. Instead it was the old train. I took it at 5.42pm from Midvalley. It stopped in Tasik Selatan. I assumed it will do the same in Serdang.

No, it just went away to Kajang, and had to wait another 20 minutes there.

My timing plan ruined. I missed the previous shuttle bus and the next one is just too late and too close to Maghrib hour.

So, I waited back in Serdang for the Metrobus, and hopped on one, which dropped me close enough to the stall outside UNITEN and then walked back to college.

I doubt anyone walk as much as I do in where I study.

Hostile takeover the Board of Director and Senior Management, anyone?

(P/S: Its good training for the marathon to walk, isn't it?)

Flying Without Wings

2010-04-21T21:23:00.002+08:00

As I've promised.

Click on the link to support my cause, Yayasan Anak Warisan Alam, an Eco Youth Trust for the KL-Standard Chartered Run. A total of RM500 is required for me for this pledge, and donations can vary from whatever amount you desire.

[CLICK Standard Chartered KL Marathon 2010 - Users HERE]

I love you all and promise to at least treat each one who donated a cup of teh tarik.

How about that?

Runaway Train

2010-04-21T00:49:00.002+08:00

I told you I suck at writing in BM. At least I'm being honest on this.

I want to run the Standard Chartered Marathon. The thing is last year when the college had a marathon, I ran 10km and got fever after that. But then again, that was when H1N1 was in season.

Now, I would want to run, for a cause. At least its more meaningful isn't it?

Regardless if its for Yayasan Anak Warisan Alam, National Cancer Society or Malaysian Aids Council I would indefinitely pledge for a cause.

But then again, I haven't even registered. I'm not sure how far I can go on this. 10km, 21km or 42km?

I have about 66 days to train!

And just to let you know, running for a charity would need me to fundraise minimum of RM500 therefore I sincerely appreciate any form of donations directly towards the marathon profile website. Will keep everyone updated on the methods on donation, if you love me enough to give some donations through your credit, debit or even online banking transfer.

The Long Goodbye

2010-04-20T01:03:00.003+08:00

Saya dah janji nak karang dalam BM kan? Jadi saya tulis dalam BM sekarang.

Baik tulis sekarang, nanti lupa. Dah la malas. Suka tangguh lagi. Aduhai.

2-3 hari ni sangat sibuk tak tahu la kenapa.

Hari Jumaat pegi cari kerja teringin nak jadi Barista padahal poket semakin kering jadi perlu plan B sebab tak nak susah mak dan bapak.

Hari Sabtu malam pegi tengok Konsert Akademi Fantasia dengan sepupu sebab dia nak belanja. Ikut saja lah sebab saya bukan selalu berlepak dengan saudara sendiri jarang-jarang sekali. Tak la hebat sangat konsert tu sebab bosan gila. Saya tak minat AF langsung, tapi sebab suka pegi tengok persembahan live, nak amik feel semata-mata.

Banyak pulak orang pelangi kat situ. Biasa la kot?

Hari Ahad rushing pegi jumpa Timbalan Setiausaha Dalam Negara Hal Ehwal Kebudayaan dan Pendidikan USA di The Ritz Residence. Orangnya kecik dan comey saja nama Ms Pally. Orang kuat Clinton. Kalau keluarga angkat di Oklahoma tahu mesti semacam mereka fikir sebab mereka orang kuat Parti Republikan. Tak apa lah, sebab ini untuk kepentingan alumni sendiri. Ms Pally pun cakap, alumni kami jadi model alumni dunia. Maknanya, lepas ni kena la lebih komited dan tak boleh main-main saja. Kena banyak buat aktiviti dengan lebih baik sebab jadi contoh alumni lain.

Hari Isnin makan malam di The Royale Chulan. Di layan hebat macam VIP sama dengan alumni program lain yang penah ke USA. Seronok dapat becakap, sebab bila saya bukak mulut banyak idea keluar. Kepala otak sentiasa berpusing pikir benda nak buat dalam komuniti. Contoh, hujung minggu ni ada Global Youth Service Day jadi kami pegi Rumah Anak Yatim buat Program Perkaya Bahasa Inggeris, lepas tu hari Ahad pegi Rumah Pelindungan Gadis Mengandung Bawah Umur derma pakaian.

Seronok tolong orang walau tak dapat untung atau duit. Yang penting orang lain dapat kebaikan. Ni semua kerja ramai-ramai dengan ahli alumni jugak.

Sayang sebab kat Bolehland orang ramai penting diri kalau benda tu tak bawak balik duit orang tak nak buat tapi saya seronok saja buat walau poket saya sentiasa kering.

Sekarang saya membujang balik. Awal-awal hari tu ada main-main cheenta sikit tapi tak menjadi. Entah la, mungkin saya tak pandai. Tak ada pengalaman.

Sebab tu saya suka buat aktiviti sukarela ni. Alih perhatian dari benda-benda yang menyakit hati.

Ha. Kan dah cakap saya tak pandai tulis dalam BM. Dulu masa kelas tuisyen saya cemerlang bila SPM haprak je dapat.

Mesti semua bosan baca. Tak paham sepatah harem saya tulis.

Harap maaf. Selamat malam semua.

Me, Myself and I

2010-04-18T20:41:00.002+08:00

Its been a week since, or so since I last wrote stuff.

The entire week has been terribly busy starting off with Trisha's birthday in Sunway Lagoon. It was practically fun although it was very much costly. However, it was really worth it. We had great dinner at Manhattan Fish Market which was absolutely my first time ever and it was on her therefore it wasn't that bad considering I'm getting heavily broken by each second I breathe. Speaking of which, the new fan page I joined in Facebook, I do really wish money would have sex in my pocket and multiply.

On the same night I rushed to Bandaraya to Quality Hotel for a camp training. It was fun to meet up with the favorite people on earth and mingle around with all the educational stuff in between but overall it was fun, fun and fun.

The entire week seemed more like a waste as college was tiring and the new f-up system, is just f-up-ed. The college decided to auto register its new students. And therefore, they decided to register me on courses I have exempted. With the faculty having almost 400 students or so, I wish the best of luck to the staff.

And I sincerely thank God for my results. 6 subjects, and with playfulness in between I have no idea how I made it. Perhaps the never ending coffee misery helped much.

Thats all for now. My eyeballs are about to pop out. And I am hungry.

I will write more about my first ever Akademi Fantasia concert experience. Seriously, I knew none of the contestant as I never liked the show at the first place. Drama, much?

The Burning Babe

2010-04-08T01:57:00.002+08:00

This is my 155th post.

No, I don't seek popularity like those who'd announce their blog anniversary. Monkeys With Tarter Sauce came a long way since space.live.com online journal. That was like in 2005 when I was actively writing about my Egyptian Adventure as an exchange student for 2-months.

The name it self came about from a special online friend whom I've known since 2002 and we're still friends until now.

Even so, there are readers for my blog. Its a personal space and I never expect frequent and regular readers therefore I sincerely thank you for being interested with my forever, never-ending miserable adventurous life stories.

Never mind that. I'm back in college. I have so many things to do in my room. Those who are friends with me in Facebook may have seen the terrible destruction of my room. Its big mess.

Need to clean up.

Tomorrow is going to be a short day and Friday, I will hit Sunway Lagoon for the first time ever for Trisha's birthday.

Weekend would be filled with volunteers' training program.

Seems like my holiday is really ending now!

Yikes.

4 Minutes

2010-04-07T12:36:00.003+08:00

I'm almost done packing. Its something I really am not good at.

I'm leaving the great island of amazing food. I am satisfied with the mediocre gastronomical adventure I had, of which includes the favorite Kari Ketam, Gulai Ikan Kering, Char Kuey Teow, Mee Baker, Nasi Kandaq Beratoq, and the list is just never ending. Unlike in KL, food here is good everywhere. Almost.

Back then around college radius area. Food sucks. Big time.

At least I get fat at home.

Then I can starve as much, until I go home again, which is inconsistently irregular.

I can look as skinny as a stick but I have when I have belly. I envy those guys with nice abs.

Going back to the city means a busy life. However, I like to keep in touch with friends.

Let's have coffee date?

Mamak ada jual Caramel Macchiato, Cold, Less Ice, 3 shot with Soy Milk tak?

p/s: I survived driving in the smallest lane in the island, or at least big road with 2-3 cars on the sides blocking the way making 2 way become one. Which also means that I can officially drive everywhere else in this country! Except I only know reverse parking, and absolutely hate the other 2 way of parking. And stoopid drivers as well.

I'll Stand By You

2010-04-06T02:16:00.003+08:00

Saya tak pandai karang dalam BM.

Tapi ada orang minat jadi saya cuba lagi.

Macam orang lain, saya pun ada masalah. Macam-macam.

Kengkawan. Duit. Study. Masa depan. Dan lain-lain.

Tapi notakakinya, saya ada masalah low self esteem. Saya tak tahu apa maknanya dalam BM.

Oh. Rendah diri kot?

Orang pikir saya penuh konfiden. Main redah je. Umor belum 20 dah merata pusing dunia.

Sendiri. Egypt, USA saya pegi dengan program petukaran pelajar.

Thailand, Indonesia, Singapura, Vietnam, Cambodia saya redah pakai duit gaji kerja sendiri. Kalau sesak saya talipon kat mak saya. Tu pun saya segan sebab saya tak suka susah famili sendiri. Bukan orang senang-lenang.

Oh bebalik kat masalah awal.

Saya rendah diri. Saya rasa diri tak menarik. Orang tak minat kat saya. Bukan nya elok sangat. Gelap sikit. Rambut kembang tak sepasal. Cakap main lepas kadang-kadang. Pikir sangat pasal masalah antarabangsa. Risau kebajikan orang. Macam orang cakap tak hot, tak jambu tak ada orang nak. Kot?

Entah la.

Tapi saya pun tak tahu kenapa saya pikir merepek.

Serius, saya merepek sekarang.

Baik tengok Glee saja.

Blog ni penuh kategori "Komplikasi". Aura negatif semata-mata.

The Scientist

2010-04-05T21:56:00.004+08:00

I told you I suck at writing in BM. I can only speak, but I sound stupid writing in one.

Anyway, I'm supposed to write about the adventure to Tioman. It was a terrible mess, on going there itself.

On Thursday, ~~April~~ March 25th, I went out with Colin who just came back for Spring Break/Easter Holiday from Deutschland. We hung out in Pavilion and since its been a while there was so much to catch up. Amazingly, I was punctual which is is the total opposite since he now studies in a country where you'd never be forgiven for being late.

We had lunch in Food Republic and then just wandered around into the mall, and having both of us being conscious about our money (he is extremely frugal than me) we just window shopped for the most part of the day.

It all changed when we entered Cotton On. Everything was too cheap for a regular Topman/Zara standard.

A really good price, seriously.

To get the cash was another challenge. I was unprepared to shop. We headed to the atm next to Starbucks and the security guys were getting some cash in and technical stuff was going on. The one downstairs was not working.

Device Failure.

Damn you CIMB.

Off we went around to walk and walk before I got myself the slip in shoe.

We than hung out at the Starbucks just because he never experience the only reason why and what people do there.

We got bored then, walked all the way to KLCC and hung out to continue the gossips, and then headed to Kinokuniya before hopping on the next train home.

I'm not writing the entire journey of the day, as much as I used to enjoy telling the world about my dailies, but I shall conclude it was a great day with a very old friend. We hardly talk sometimes, and getting others of the gang to come along was not easy on weekdays so i'm happy everything went well.

Can't wait for other meet ups, coffee dates, plane-watching with other friends.

Geek In The Pink

2010-04-04T21:14:00.003+08:00

Bila kita suka kat seseorang.

Tapi dia tak ada dekat kita.

Tapi ada orang lain dekat kita.

Tapi dia memang bukan untuk kita.

Tapi kita risau bila dia tiada.

Atau hilang dia.

Walau sebagai kawan.

Bagaimana?

Saya tak ada pengalaman.

Saya pening.

Saya nak pegi jauh dari sini.

Jauh dari semua benda.

Dan orang.

Boleh?

Hey, Soul Sister

2010-04-04T01:38:00.004+08:00

Saya ada pengakuan.

Saya tak pandai tulis blog dalam Bahasa M.

Sebab saya cuma pandai cakap sahaja, SPM saya BM dapat B3.

Sebab malam ni saya bosan jadi saya pun tulis dalam bahasa ni.

Saya tak lupa diri. Tapi cuma tak pandai. Malu kot?

Entah la..

Saya merepek saja malam ni.

Selamat malam semua.

Honey Bee

2010-03-31T21:11:00.009+08:00

I am a big time procrastinator.

I won some tickets over Twitter contest. =)

And a big forehead too. Orang tua-tua cakap, kalau dahi luas orangnya pandai. Haha.. I doubt it.

This photo bunch are more excited than the other bunch =P

Now that I am home, I just eat and sleep. And do stuff. I'm really bored, so if you happen to be in Penang, jom lepak pekena nasi kandaq!

Anyway, I shall remind myself to write up about the Tioman-Chaotic-Avventura and stuff..

You Rock My World

2010-03-30T17:15:00.002+08:00

I am in the world most amazing island of great food.

Will write more later.

Feel lazy. Can or not?

Fire

2010-03-28T18:04:00.002+08:00

I was here over the weekend.

And this photo is not mine. Will substitute it later.

Being a naturally dark person, I turn even darker. I was bragging about never getting sun burn. I guess I'm getting it now.

I had a major crisis to go there. Thanks to a fellow blogger, who is a close friend, helped me out on the way.

Love you buddy. I owe you big time.

Just You And Me

2010-03-25T00:40:00.008+08:00

Call me a fan, a die hard one maybe? Well, if I ever get to meet Mika, I promise not to update my facebook, or even deactivate it. Its crazy!

She is genuinely adorable and bubbly in person. And humble too. Not those diva-like artist. After all, she started as Indie, no?

Be jealous now, after 3 hours waiting for the concert on Saturday, and 2 hours waiting in line for the autograph, meet and greet sessions on Tuesday.

Colin is back from Deutschland, and we are going to meet up tomorrow. Then on Friday morning, I leave to Tioman.

Whee~

Thanks to the big hair on my head, I probably will be featured in Air Asia in flight magazine and Life in KL blog. (flyfreak, take note. i know you regularly read me when we don't regularly talk as much. please snatch a copy. pretty puhleassee! =])

Big Big World

2010-03-22T03:07:00.004+08:00

Perhaps I shall not work with the call center, considering even if its a part time job working hour is from 9am until 6pm. And worse, you get paid only with successful interviews a month and half later.

I think I shall go for the barista, knowing the fact in recent semester Branding class most assignments were Starbucks related and also the fact that I love saying the favorite Starbucks sophistication mantra.. why not?

Zee Avi concert was ultimatum fun. Its too bad I didn't get to go to Kings of Convenience concert though.

Travel bug is back, and this is the only semester I am so broken, and not traveling abroad.

Or I may just.

This weekend, I will be heading to Tioman for a class trip and then back home to my very own greatest island of scrumplicious food. When I get back to the city, I might head down south of the country to visit a close friend, and perhaps hop into the country next to it.

My passport is expiring soon, I just need some new stamps to fill the passport.

I just told another friend the wackiest reason to get a job.

Me: I need a job.
Cheryl: Yeah, you really will fit best for the job since you love coffee and all!
Me: No, seriously. I need to get a job because I need to get a Marc Jacob bag.
Cheryl: *Laugh out loud* Yes, people need a job to earn for a living. You need a job to get a Marc Jacob bag. *Laugh even more*

I'm really that crazy, huh.

I regularly go to the airport to watch plane. And this is really random.

I'm kinda broke until I get my study loan pocket money, which is forever slow.

And the Starbucks mantra is; "Caramel Macchiato, Cold, Less Ice, Triple Shot with Soy Milk".

Kantoi

2010-03-21T02:08:00.004+08:00

The concert is uber amazing.

Who would have knew, a typical indie gig, turned into full house crowd concert?

Its amazing.

Had great time with friends, who are like from secondary school, college, AFS and blogger together. We even hung out together at Starbucks Pavilion later on. I never knew that my friends can get along well with one another, even if they never knew one another in the beginning. Why am I saying such? Because some friends, back then just don't get along well with one another back then..

Anyway..

Gotta love her.

I'm out of voice, for screaming out loud. I bought 4 tickets and won a Twitter contest which comes with 2 tix and a CD. Too bad, at the very end, I had an extra 1 tix.

Its an amazing performance, irregardless.

Anyhow..

So, next time, friends, whatever you are, whoever you are, wherever you come from, we shall hang out and spend some quality time, ok?

Papercut

2010-03-19T21:13:00.004+08:00

I need paper. I'm out of those Double A supply.

I got a job offer at a market research call center. I used to work at one, around Maybank Tower. However, it has moved to BU. Now this new one is offering, but slightly lower pay per hour. The previous one was the highest paid call center per hour.

Need to pause on Barista dream.

Need to print resume too. I should've printed a few, but then again the resume gets updated ever so frequently.

Why am I out of paper now?

I need to print tickets to Zee Avi concert tomorrow night. I bought 4 tickets. And I just won another 2 over Twitter contest.

Gotta love my Tweetdeck.

I've bloghopped a bit more, rather slowly. I realized that my post Labels are too regularly on Complication(s), and I should stop making things complicated.

I Wish You Love

2010-03-19T02:03:00.002+08:00

Now that I am done with exam, I rather feel empty.

No celebration, since everyone else left home while I was doing my last paper. The campus is empty too. Only filled with foreigners.

I'm going to Zee Avi concert this Saturday, and a Creative Talk with Jo Kukathas on Monday. Tioman class trip is gonna be on this Thursday night if I'm not mistaken.

Semester break has never been this boring. Or maybe its because I'm slightly being frugal-almost broke. Typically I would fly somewhere but not this time. Sigh.

Need to save money for new passport too. I still have my 10-year business visa to US due to the failure of flying there for the conference (got the visa a little too late) and need to save money for round the world trip right when I finish my diploma next March.

Please, please someone message me because I'm too bored. Haha..

Tomorrow, I shall go and apply to be a barista. Whooot whoot!

Shiver

2010-03-18T23:39:00.004+08:00

I am done from exam. For this semester.

I feel good.

However, due to the whole busyness, I tend to not realize things that had happened in between.

A dear friend of mine, Kak Ruby Ahmad has passed away on Tuesday and I only found out today through Marina Mahathir's blog.

Other tributes to Ruby Ahmad:

Nuraina Samad's
Pibani's
Elviza's

Kak Teh's

Initially I did not believe it, until I looked out for more tributes for her. It is her.

She will forever be missed. We first got to know each other through this blog of mine, in fact the previous, now defunct blog of mine. She was astonishingly supportive in my ideas and thoughts about life, and never dismiss them, never mind disgrace any. We never get to meet, but she has always been a kind of silent guardian always wishing my life is in good hands in whatever I do and wherever I go.

An amazing lady in person, just too graceful in anything she does. She will always be remembered, and will never forget her.

Al Fatihah.

I'm Like A Bird

2010-03-13T04:05:00.005+08:00

Well apparently, I can continue staying in hostel. Don't know why, but must definitely thank the small petite abang who works in the accommodation department. When I first met him with such snub face he told me off I couldn't stay and the next day while having lunch, he came to me after tapau-ing his own lunch and said;

Mr Kamal: "Nak bayar hostel kan? Skang dah boley dah. Baru dapat info this morning"

I'm beyond joy!

I can apply to work as Barista without worrying about transportation.

I can go to the city regularly without worrying about transportation.

I can volunteer as usual without worrying about transportation.

I can attend US Embassy function without worrying about transportation.

I can go to yoga classes without worrying about transportation.

Whooooot whoooooot.

Best of all, I don't have to worry about moving my trash out from my room.

I called them Kreativ (organized) Mess. However, this photos resemble June 2009. Its much worse today. I feel sorry for my roomate.

She Came In Through The Bathroom Window

2010-03-09T21:18:00.003+08:00

I went to pay for my hostel fees and was instead told to evacuate my room for the future 1st year students.

Its rather unfair, methinks looking at those seniors who have been staying in the campus for more than few years as they also seemed to be mingling around doing nothing and they even own cars.

What more, me, the ultimately hobo, who is forever desperate and in need to rely on public transportations.

I'm lost in limbo.

Why?

The content of my room is more than any typical-average college students would be. My room is like a home, filled with piles of books and magazine, and my wardrobe is overcrowded with clothes.

Nevermind the bottles I collect for recycling purposes. Everything seemed to be mounting in mess too now that I'm just too busy with exams.

Ultimately, I worry about logistic. My parents are offering my dad's Waja, but it just breakdown a lot. Go figure.

I'm lost in limbo.

I fear not being able to enjoy the privilege of waking up 5 minutes before class starts anymore in the most comfortable, ground floor room in the campus.

Footnote:

Never step into that University College in Jalan Serdang-Kajang, if you ever plan to study in wonderful place that has in-campus housing. It may be cheap with so much of advertisement and that huge-ass billboard over the walkway across Petaling Street, but the infrastructure is horrible mess.

They may own the right of maintenance of roads in most main roads in the country and perhaps be profiting from everywhere, and renown to be the so-called best in Civil Engineering (which isn't anything I'm studying anyway). However, they sucks in maintaining the infrastructure in the campus, and not able to provide sufficient accommodation for everyone.

Bottomline, just don't make a big mistake like I did. There are better place for education, even if they are money/for-profit base. At least they know the students need and pay attention to it (some, at least). And don't bother talking about public universities. I don't even belong there.

Down The River

2010-03-08T04:20:00.001+08:00

I am a terrible person.

Ignore my previous post, or more humiliatingly, ignorant thoughts.

What do you do when the one you think you care for most, is in the edge of his or her life, due to chronic unavoidable disease?

A person with cancer, or certain blood sickness has cure right?

What if the doctor said there is chances of living for another 15 years, when usually its less than 5 years?

Unfortunately, the strength has weaken.

What kind of support should be given asides from emotional support?

If you have any experience, or know someone or has knowledge in these matter, we need to talk.

Will You Still Love Me Tomorrow

2010-03-06T03:04:00.009+08:00

Well, you thought you were so in love with someone when the feeling and affection was all time high.

However, its just getting no nowhere, and perhaps disappearing.

Maybe love really happens when you least expected it, and my expectation was as expected?

I don't know. I'm in the midst of giving up. Its been like this since secondary school. The first ever didn't work out, and we became good friends still. Now, she is in Russia.

Maybe I'm just not good enough regardless of how much effort I already put and the pain and sacrifices.. is now no longer worth it?

How could a person who was just forever there, suddenly becomes too busy for you.

Sigh.

Maybe I'm best having nothing?

I designed this for final project, but was deliberately not given good comments.

Crushed, literally felt.

I give up on dreaming having to do anything with advertising. Is it a goodbye, Leo Burnett?

I should go to bed now.

Sing, Sing, Sing

2010-03-01T22:17:00.003+08:00

I get my sitemeter count mailed to me every Monday.

I did not see it entirely but briefly.

I have an average between 10-15 people stumbling into this evil dungeon of secret words of desire and mystery. More or less, a whine arena.

And to that, I thank you for being interested in my ever confusing, complicated with ginormous complexity of substances of my secretive, never ending miserable yet excitingly funny life.

No Woman, No Cry

2010-02-25T02:10:00.001+08:00

I wanted to write something but I totally lost my mind about it.

I've been too hooked over the assignment and need ideas to sketch for an advertisement for Loacker Quadratini.. and adsoftheworld.com just got too addictive.

My contact lens are drying and I'm hungry but I'm on a really tight budget so I rather skip dinner.

Maybe ideas will come soon.

Hopefully.

And this slow wifi is pissing me off. Dang it.

Folsom Prison Blues

2010-02-23T14:09:00.002+08:00

The one big thing I hate to talk about especially with my family is money.

Which reminds me of the incident most recently when a young boy from group of the orphanage children we brought to Botanical Garden for class final project asking few of us a very deep, critical question from the mind of a pure and innocent child.

Boy: "Brother, brother, what is the dirtiest thing is the world?"

Me: "Um.. got a lot lah"

Boy: "You think leh?"

Me: "Toilet?"

Boy: "No.. my father said the dirtiest thing in the world is money"

Sigh.

I grew up with privileges. Now, I struggle and keeping record of every coin I spend.

Even the accommodation fees is soon, going to be a new challenge. Its just too bad that the loan I get is enough to cover the tuition fee.

More headaches to come.

When It All Falls Apart

2010-02-18T22:27:00.003+08:00

Well, its gone and done now. A week ago or so, it was something and now its nothing. At least something happened.

Sigh.

I was home on Monday, right after I've sent off the ultimate-sushi-arts-for-grab-KLpac-camp-volunteer-partnet-in-crime to New Zealand to further her studies. Her flight departed on Sunday and I left for home the following day. Urgh, this sentence became just too redundant.

Anyway, going to Klang for Gong Xi at Tyng's was a challenge as I missed the morning bus and the train was being bitchy and late, and there was just too many foreign workers with their very foreign body odour. Dang.

I've not been writing much nor been reading any other blog as I got too lazy and just too overwhelmed with so many stalkers coming in and the probability of me being googled is all time high right after the never-happened-incident with youknowwho.

You can never have anything you want most in life, and when you have it and you'd screw the moment immediately and thats it.

Life goes on.

Heartbreaker

2010-02-17T02:22:00.004+08:00

I'm at home, and its not for long.

Had Char Kuey Teow, and mum's fusili+schrimp+mushroom+whipped cream pasta which she learned from Carmen.

Met Tok Nah. Love to laugh with her. Such an amazing grandmother, although we're not biologically related as she was just my greatgrandma's adopted sister.

Possibly a few mandatory checklist did make it this time.

I can be slightly a Happy Gilmore.

And I screwed up things with youknowwho.

Will never be forgiven, and will forever be left with bad rapport.

Gong Xi Fa Chai!

2010-02-13T23:23:00.001+08:00

Gong Xi Fa Chai!

Have a prosperous new year ahead!

All Dressed Up In Love

2010-02-12T02:33:00.002+08:00

screw it.

Family Potrait

2010-02-10T12:21:00.003+08:00

I never like to get phone call from home, especially when the news isn't something you look forward to.

Something is really bothering my mind now.

Whatever it is, I will always love my mum endlessly.

Let It Bleed

2010-02-06T23:07:00.004+08:00

I told you I'm never good with love, and never exactly to want to expose about it never mind giving in details.

And commonly, I always felt unwanted.

It might just not work out at all.

Its always too hard to find the right one, who understands you and love you for who you are, what you are, what you do, and what you love.

Worse is, to find someone who love you for what you do in life, and the trouble you go to achieve it and at the same time achieving the love as well.

There's already two major turbulences in the last 2-weeks. How will it even survive?

I'm not giving up. Its just maybe more space needed.

After all, might just be another single Valentine again. Sigh.

Knowing Me, Knowing You

2010-02-05T00:23:00.004+08:00

I'm just too excited for the weekend to come. Finally!

Friday is my last presentation, hopefully, and I have less assignments left due for now. I could feel some oxygen gas around me flowing free like no pollution. Well, that doesn't make any sense right?

Anyway, tomorrow night I will be going to Frontera in Jaya One for Doris's farewell as she will be leaving to New Zealand on the 14th. Amazing huh? Leaving home on the first day of Chinese New Year is just too awkward isn't it. However, as her classes begin the following week she must leave on that day itself for the orientation. There goes my artsy-fartsy partner in crime. No more random hang out in Starbucks Borders in The Gardens and Arts for Grab hunt in Pasar Seni. No more kaki to go KLpac too. Aiyooo..

On Saturday, there will be the alumni picnic, which I totally am slightly confused the exact location is. On Sunday, I maybe going on USS NIMITZ ship. Yes, its the US Navy ship with jet fighter on it. How cool is that? Hah.

Enough of bragging.

Despite planning for the annual Anti-Valentine's Day by wearing black and hanging out mingling with the single gal pals, I may not be single at all. But then again, lets just keep some stuff private to those who really knows ok?

My eyes are drying now but I'm just too lazy to go wash and pop the lenses out from my eyeballs.

I should continue my random productivity mode and finish up with the completed presentation slides.

Will be bitching more about life this coming weekend.

Gute Nacht, yo!

[P/S: Who the heck are those randoms who messing with my Shout Boxx? --------->>>>> ]

L.O.V.E.

2010-02-01T00:18:00.004+08:00

Amazingly, I have not been writing much as I wanted too. Too many things happened in a single month and not all are necessary to be told to the world, or rather just mere gibberish whine.

Oh, remember my lost Nike flip-flops? Its home now. Someone put it right outside my room on Sunday morning and when I was back on Saturday the day before there was nothing. Perhaps the curse I made upon the thief worked?

I have 2 pair of these Nike and 4 pairs of Old Navy (which cost US$5 for 2)

Anyway, the last 3 weeks were filled with forever never ending assignments plus with a teaspoon of procrastination everything just worked too well to the point where I do not exactly get enough sleep.

Also, January became the month of non spending which I therefore did not enter Topman and Zara after December 31st purchases. However, the money cumulated was not enough to last me to the end of the month and I still do not understand where it went missing. Airport run, perhaps? I had to take several taxi rides too due to the hopeless shuttle bus around. Each taxi ride cost 10 bucks.. so imagine 2 rides already can be pain in the hole of the pocket, no?

I have made few new friends over the month and the networking seemed to be very interesting variety. Also, I have new buddies to just talk to. I'm a happy Gilmore, really. Facebook and some other social networking sites seemed to be finally useful. Games are forever addictive too on Facebook. Damn. Aside from being really tired and annoyed with the slow load of Farmville, I still could not compete on Virtual Flights. Perhaps its time to just stick to Airline Manager?

Pfft. I dislike the warm weather. I miss those 2 weeks in December when it just rained and drizzle nonstop for 2-weeks.

And yes, the title has hidden meaning. Nothing to decrypt, but just a possibility.

Take A Chance On Me

2010-01-22T20:21:00.004+08:00

I officially gained 5kg. That's an impressive achievement, if you have been following me blogging since 2006 from my previous older blog with all the so-called campaign like "make me gain weight" or "feed me more".

However, I do not fancy gaining weight. Its typically possible when I go abroad on exchange program which was to Egypt and USA and my face would have turned round and with shorter hair back then, I felt like a soccer ball.

Unfortunately, I may not fit in some of my Topman XS-sized shirts, and sometime skinny gets too tight.

All thanks to recent workout, and excessive food consumption too. Body combat is fun, and so is pilates. I wish I had more gym buddies around as motivation. Its not like I want to go Schwarzenegger but just nice enough at the same time looking rather thin. Weird, isn't it?

I just need to be less lazy and do more sit ups so I wouldn't have a belly. Its just another minor phobia and I get pretty annoyed when mini tummy shows up when I wear slightly smaller sized shirts.

Weekend is here and currently its raining heavily.

And so are my assignments.

Dang it.

Bathroom Break

2010-01-21T13:09:00.004+08:00

Sequence to the sudden suicidal death (with mini explosion) of the washing machine in the laundry room, I finally did my first hand wash. Hah!

Well not really, I did some, few years back but its so rare like finding a white elephant in the cloud.

My hand hurts because I'm not used to it. Haha! Spoilt kid I was depending all on the machine.

I have not been entirely productive on almost everything and need some motivation. Whatever it is, I just need some good vibrations from everywhere.

Ok, I really am out of words. See, I can never major in Journalism!

Jinx!

P/s: I just broke my favorite IKEA mug. FML.

Call Me Irresponsible

2010-01-17T12:04:00.005+08:00

It has been exactly a week since I wrote and I have almost been procrastinating on everything. This is no good. I have several checklist with me now, which I hope to complete by tonight and it includes writing this entry.

The past week has been like a circus. Its madness. Its massive!

Exactly a week ago, I was facilitating an orientation camp. Then come Tuesday, we sent off 46 of them to US. Gosh. Exactly 3 years ago, I was in USA too! I absolutely hate to realize how fast time flies away.

As I was chatting to Queen B a few days ago, she told me that I must not write when I don't feel like writing and let it "bersawang-sawang".

Here I am now writing some nonsense so it wouldn't not be too much of sawang.

Yesterday was fun. Me and 2 friends from college walked all the way from Chow Kit to Central Market through Jalan Tunku Abdul Rahman and Jalan Masjid India from 10am until 6pm. It was quite an adventure especially with them girls wearing wedges. And its the first time I did not splurge so much like I typically do but simply on a cheap goggle from Mydin which then I got into a small argument with the cashier at Mydin for refusing plastic bag for that small purchase.

Argh. I hate plastic bags. And people!

Swimming pool is dirty. I better go and eat brunch. I crave for fussili now.

Seven Days Without You

2010-01-08T12:11:00.005+08:00

I rather seemed to be enjoying my days much better than those horrendous endings of 2009. New Year's Eve was something I had great deal of fun as I was dreadfully almost had an empty night alone but I crashed over a friend's party which ended up becoming sleepover with a bunch of crazy friends.

The week passed so quick and its already a week of 2010. Nevermind the tragic assignments that seemed more like a never ending misery as that can be another series of unfortunate events, but heck, I had a great week too.

Besides sleeping over at the airport on the benches waiting to bid farewell to a dear friend who left early morning next day, the most recent weekdays of 2010 is really just amazing.

As much as I hate to sweat and walking under the hot sun, I actually sacrificed myself for the kind of things I enjoyed doing. You know, I'm the kind of person who would do anything to get what I want, need or whatever may be presented in that category. I wouldn't want to divulge into details but Tuesday, January 5th was amazing and Wednesday January 6th is fantastic.

Its something non-academic, which I humbly enjoyed. Nevermind the details, only those who have been affected will understand.

2-weeks since I last went to the gym. I feel fat.

Yikes. Before heading to bed last night I planned to do laundry and the moment I woke up it was raining cats and dogs.

Auld Lang Syne

2009-12-31T00:15:00.004+08:00

To those who wishes their condolences, I thank you. I was not deeply affected by the situation but nevertheless, a long-distance-never-met-cousins-twice-removed is still a relative anyway.

The weekend trip to home is too short although some latest Facebook photo updates seemed entertaining, however, I lost my wallet again. Same year, lost another IC, driving license, ATM cards, debit card, Isetan, Jusco, Genting, Starbucks etc etc.

I still feel like crap.

I have no plans for new year and I so hope to have something good to kick in. Call me, or hunt me over Facebook if you do want me to be around you for new year instead of sleeping in through the night..

I'm going to end the tragic and adventurous 2009 for good and have better kickstart for 2010.

I'm Not OK

2009-12-27T00:50:00.003+08:00

The recent bus crash tragedy happened took away 10 lives. 2 of them were my second cousins, on my mother's Al-Junid side. They were the sisters, one was unidentified because she gave her IC to her dad to get her PMR results. She obtained 6As and 3Bs. Her sister is 21, and is studying in some polytechnic.

I never met either one of them. The funeral already finished right after Zohor. Their bodies arrived in Sungai Petani around 1pm, and they were buried by 3pm.

The younger one was a Tahfiz, or in my humble understanding someone who has memorized the Quran or is well educated in religious education academically.

Al-Fatihah.

Exactly a month ago, my uncle passed away. He's my dad's younger brother-in-law.

3 deaths in a month. May they all rest in peace and be with the blessed ones.

Oi To The World

2009-12-25T00:14:00.004+08:00

Screw assignments. I got too distracted thinking about the holiday.

However, there will be no homemade turkey with cranberry sauce and mashed potatoes with gravy since Carmen and Ed already left home to Canada as their My Second Home visa expires, and when recession came it shrunk their savings.

No Christmas For Me.

No one to kiss under the mistletoe too.

Bah. Hambug.

Joyeux Noël to all!!

Somewhere Over The Rainbow.

2009-12-23T00:35:00.004+08:00

I'm lazy. I have 3 more assignments due before holiday starts. Procrastination extraordinaire on the rise!

Doomed.

I've been watching this at least 10 times. I think you should watch this.

Monday, Monday

2009-12-21T12:10:00.004+08:00

I can't believe how fast time ran away from me. Just a week ago I was in Singapore, and now I'm running behind deadlines for assignment. Damn.

Brittany Murphy just died, while Perez Hilton going hoo-haa because Brittany hubby don't want any autopsy. Poor child. She is one of the few fun people you like to see on movies as much as you can. Something like the kind of blonde-material yet fun and naturally joy and hyper.

Remember Uptown Girl? The nanny in it was her.

Singapore has been so much fun. Mustafa, my online buddy for the past few years was an awesome host. He was over in KL for a night after a 3-day holiday trip with his family in Cameron Highland. Apparently his parents is so much hip too. They may look like some typical Pak Cik and Mak Cik but they are beyond that stereotype. Instead of fussing over no accommodation for a night before departing home they deliberately hobo-ed in the airport. Cool or not? Family too, can hobo around like backpackers!

Well I met up with him on Friday because I left my mini-wallet in his bag. I was without my ATMs, gym card and IC for about a week. Thank god we are in neighboring country! I only noticed not having it with me when I was at Tanah Merah MRT interchange, and its already the last train that night to the airport from Clementi. The ride took about an hour and going back to his place means I would miss my flight the next morning. Well, stupidly Air Asia was delayed then for an hour.

I got a haircut which went horrible right after I arrived in Sentral on Monday from the airport. The she-dude cut the wrong way. Let it be another lesson, to only get a haircut from someone with the same hairstyle or at least in her 40s. The only reason I got a haircut that day was because I was about to meet Special Representative for Muslim Committee for a special meeting with YES alumni and other delegates at MACEE.

The week ran away from me literally. Saturday was a fun day, with AFS people we had Christmas Party. No elaboration is required because its the kind of day where everyone laugh and joyed.

I'm waiting for my laundry to be done. The dryer is not functioning and the sun is not shining.

Bleh.

P/S: to Mud, kalau hang mau chek belanja tengok Muallaf, jom. Seriously. Pastu makan char kuey teow. Nak tak? Hang ja dapat menda ni semua tau. =D

Ave Maria

2009-12-18T01:06:00.003+08:00

In the name of Allah, the Most Gracious, Most Merciful.

I won tickets to see Muallaf premier in Cineleisure at The Curve thanks to random comment I gave on KLue fanpage on Facebook.

Again, any movies by the late, great storyteller will never fail to disappoint those who can truly read between the lines in what she produced. An elegant masterpiece, with excellent details that comes with joy of humor and tears of sadness. Unlike most fabricated rubbish that concentrate on making money, this movie primarily is one of the simplest movie above all. The others were more heavy in content but this one is a fairly light one and I wonder why it has been banned for the past 2 years.

She described bits of Koran and ordinary life of people in details that could only be described in her way of making movies.

The balding issue? Or the overly religious quotes from the Holy Books such as Koran and Bible? As well as Tao Te Ching?

"People are afraid of things they do not know about"

Watching such great epic made me realize how unreligious I have became and how the lazy bug hits me on my prayers. I may not be the kind that complete it entirely but I do try to pray on time, which can be challenging sometime and I do still have faith in The Almighty.

I worry too about those who have lost theirs.

Initially, I wanted to elaborate about the movie but I guess its best not to give spoiler. Have a go and watch it when it comes out! It may not be as futuristic as Avatar and so much action like New Moon but the love story could be enjoyed as well.

GO!

Labels or Love

2009-12-13T17:51:00.004+08:00

After a great weekend in this Lion City, I'm about to head home tomorrow morning.

I've came here with $220 and still have a balance of $50. The only place I've splurge was in Mustafa Department Store, which is a bargain deal like Mydin back home. And the total damage was about $64.

I didn't get the Cotton On dark blue checkered shirt which is sold out in Pavilion, but heck. I got a nice army sling bag in olive color for $10. I wanted the one in khaki like my friends who got his from his NS but nevermind lah.. The uncle at the army shop must have been color-blind or something.

Couchsurfing is very recommended. It saves the trouble of renting accommodation especially in this expensive city island country. Gotta love the MRT and fast escalator in the station. If only the KTM could ever catch up the speed. Love the host I'm staying with in Clementi. Such great family life to experience here. I now question about hospitality back home when here seems so much nicer, somehow.

Too bad I don't get to visit 2 of my friends. Its been such short trip with so many things done at the same time.

Off to repack my small duffle bag. Gonna hobo-ing in airport again, but the good news is its Changi!

Yippie! )

All The Love In The World

2009-12-10T17:38:00.005+08:00

I shouldn't have done Pilates and Body Combat yesterday. I feel aching all over.

My flight leaves at 9pm, I'm now rushing to the airport. The tickets which I bought months ago was on RM0 sale and I almost forgot about it.

I'm slightly broke too, and I will survive this expensive country a stone throw away. Thank god there' s a couch to crash over.

Will be back on Monday morning.

Cape Cod Kwassa Kwassa

2009-12-09T23:25:00.003+08:00

My biggest enemy, Jealousy has just arrive.

I was in cafeteria having late dinner which I have not done for a while already with a friend whom I have not been hanging out for a bit. It was nice catching up with random stuff. I like to talk to people who I can easily click with, which happens often but not regularly. I hate those awkward moment where you don't know what to say and stuff.

Suddenly, I heard people singing birthday song loudly. It was for a friend, by another group of friends-classmates. Of which some, I heard over the grapevine regularly talks about me behind my back, or at least ditch me most of the time. Fun moments that usually take place months ago no longer seem to linger much.

Surprises never comes in good way for me.

My friend whom I was having dinner with wanted to go back and I didn't even bother about the event that was going on. On one hand, I felt left out for not being invited to join in the surprise because I'm known to be the kind of person who likes to celebrate other people. Nevertheless, perhaps they already noticed how much lately I like to go out on my own, alone.

I'm such a loner.

Whom once upon a time a social butterfly.

Sigh.

Although yesterday, I had slightly better day going out with another really old good friend whom I've last seen when I was in Form 2 back in high school which then he already graduated from school later. He didn't proceed with Engineering course which he dreamed about and currently working as a researcher on law cases and going to be a lawyer soon.

He picked me up with his Volkswagen Beetle and it became my first time ever to ride one. We headed to KLpac to watch The Swimming Instructor which was really good show. Before that, we had random dinner snack at some hawker since we both are slightly frugal and apparently its located on Jalan Punggok somewhere in Sentul. It was slightly ghetto but the table was next to a Bentley showroom.

I bumped into u-Jean, whom apparently work at the ticketing area. We went back to college together later and catch up a little bit. We had McD sundae cone. At least I had a better yesterday.

Off to bed I go now.

Pagi Yang Gelap

2009-12-08T00:27:00.002+08:00

Footnoteonheader: Happy birthday to my sister whom I love so much because she is ultimately the savior, help and basically my everything when I'm down and up.

On Sunday, I went to Wangsa Walk with Yah Tyng and Joyce because we wanted to see how the World AIDS Day was like since we heard Tun Dr. M was going to officiate it.

Much to our disappointment, of me coming all the way from Bangi, Joyce from Bandar Tun Razak and Yah Tyng from Teluk Gadong thinks the event was too racially based. Perhaps the volunteers were from a single race and wouldn't approach different race due to shyness and fear or godknows whatever reason they may come up to. We firmly believe that this celebration should be a globalized event where it involved all kind of people from every kind of background.

Apparently, it looked more like a promo event for some Mandarin speaking artists. Everything were in Mandarin.

Big sigh.

We had Popeyes before heading to the shameful arena of disappointment and decided to go to KLCC for PC Fair which happened to be a great bargain day out. I got a Logitech Laser Mouse (which made me broke later on) while Tyng got 2, and a whole bunch of stuff for her relatives whom pre-ordered right when they found out she was going to the PC Fair. Shamefully, I had not enough money to get Seagate external HD for my sister.

Headed to Kinokuniya, the dream but overpriced bookstore for most Bolehlanders. We headed Nando's later since we craved for it earlier the day since we don't fancy Kenny Rogers and prefer Peri-peri stuff.

It was a such gleeful and joyous day, absolutely stress free plus slightly hobo since we wandered a bit hunting for taxi around Wangsa Walk which is the kind of place we never been to and wouldn't want to get lost around. At least I got an American Eagle polo for RM11 from Factory Outlet Store warehouse sale which supposed to cost around RM45 or even around USD39 for the real deal. At least the trip to that part of the world wasn't such a waste.

I feel so much better than last week.

Suddenly I have so much of idea flowing too.

Later that night, I went to Hentian Putra bus station for the first time ever. Back then when I was younger and when dad used to earn more our family stayed regularly in Pan Pacific which is famous for its water-shooting-sprinkle toilet. I went there to meet up with an online friend for the first time whom I promised earlier the week to accompany him and hunt for a room to rent since he just got a job around SS2. However, the plan did not work out really since he found a room in Pandan Jaya. I've had the impression that he may be rather unsure of places around the city but apparently he knows the ghetto much better! Cititel Express has been a favorite stopover, which undeniably a slightly nicer place to stay in Chow Kit.

Got back to college safely, thankfully survived early LRT and did not miss the dumb shuttle bus which commonly leaves earlier; right the moment when I exit the station.

I'm looking forward for better days ahead, despite being rather broke and already trying to save a bit.

Life is expensive therefore get rid of all ATM cards!

Where Did I Go Right?

2009-12-06T00:27:00.003+08:00

I became very insecure with life for uncertain reasons, perhaps with the typical people around me on daily basis. Although I firmly believe in what the Victoria Secret Vice President of Public Relations mentioned before; "What people think of you is none of your business. Grow up, suck it and embrace it" has been stuck on my mind and I never failed to bother until most recently which brought me to think about so many things.

I like to think deep, very deep in fact. Its unavoidable.

I just came back from Korean food buffet at Seoul Garden in Kerinchi. It was RM43.32 freakin bucks but thankfully it was unlimited. I'm still very stuffed.

Also, I enjoyed the day because I was with the kind of people whom I can have LOL moments in public. Yes, I'm a big laugher and can be annoying sometime but I just like to have fun. Let all the laughter out. Its really stress-free and relaxing.

Earlier before that, I met up with Sheesha whom currently studying in Murdoch in Perth. She is my ultimate IKEA Swedish meatballs partner-in-crime and the only one I eat IKEA meatballs with. Its like our special ritual. We met each other about 4 years ago, exactly around these days before going to Egypt where we went on an exchange program. Back then, I've thought she was the kind of spoilt, typical brat but she is one of the best friend I've befriended. Although she is on her summer break, she will be leaving to Jakarta for some ESQ program and then 5 weeks in Beijing continuing her Mandarin course.

I feel good for being able to laugh after a week of fun deprived as well as being around the kind of people I enjoy having fun with.

I stink and smell like those smokes meat we burned out food just now. Taking shower, off to bed. House hunting for friend from JB around SS2 tomorrow. Let me know if you know any vacant room for single occupant.

Dangerously In Love

2009-12-05T02:08:00.002+08:00

I've been practically doing unconventional stuff over the past few days since it officially became an emo week.

I rented a manual Naza Sutera which suck like hell and total crap since I don't know how to drive non-auto vehicles. Crawled from campus to Bangi Section 15 then all the way to the KLIA airport to send fellow thespian, Joycelyn Choong off to USA. She will be there for internship under work/travel program in a snow hotel in the mountains of Vermont.

I hate manual cars. They tend to die whenever I stop. The car sucks, and it made so much funny sounds all the way to/from wherever I was going. Thank god I survived and did reverse parking without hitting the BMW 5-series behind me in the expensive 13bucks-for-5-hours parking lot.

Co-incidentally, I bumped into Yah Tyng before meeting up with Joyce as she and Marvien were sending 60 JENESYS scholars to Japan on a 2-weeks exchange program.

I spent quite sometime in the observation deck. MAHB should have made that area round so everyone can have a 360-degree view of the flight activities.

I just came back from hanging out with my lecturer and his friends around Bangsar's Pelita. Usually, I've only gone there to Nirvana Banana Leaf or Madam Kwan's but this time the food is not too bad, although the price to pay is a kick in the butt

I vow to have a better weekend instead. Will be having Korean buffet dinner, then Malaysian AIDS Council Day in Wangsa Walk on Sunday.

Blue Eyes Crying In The Rain

2009-12-02T00:36:00.001+08:00

I ran upwards on moving escalator to catch Sri Petaling train and tripped and fell and torn an inch of favorite Topman coated skinny jeans. Bleeding Inside. FML.

Maybe its payback because I got a new pair of skinny too.

I feel utmost guilt today for spending whatever I plan to spend next week in Singapore. Today was not such a great day anyway. I felt really down, below the regular self-esteem level. It led to spend, which gives temporary satisfaction but lead to another regret later on.

Thank god a friend was around to accompany and the emo-ness went away.

Joyce is leaving to USA tomorrow. There goes a thespian, no more musical and theater kaki for me. More and more friends and partners-in-crime leaving abroad.

I feel worse.

Note to self: Should stop going too overly googoogaga and emotionally unstable. Totally un-afro-ism.

My Ship Isn't Pretty

2009-12-01T13:36:00.004+08:00

My uncle passed away on Sunday. He died because of coronary athereosclerosis, pneumonia and liver failure. He didn't even knew about it. He had post-mortem surgery because the police and hospital regulated it even it was not a murder or etc. In our faith, when a dead body does not get buried ASAP its not good for the soul which eventually lead to more tears amongst the family members.

He was not the closest relative but I grew up with him around. Funny chap, sometimes. Its going to be awkward when he is not around. Poor young cousins.

Going to KLCC is no longer going to be the same since he won't be there anymore. He somewhat share-own a company that maintain the cleanliness around the Twin Tower, or so I've heard.

His wife is my dad's youngest sister out of perhaps 7-9 siblings or so. It was my first time seeing my dad hugging her, and cried. My dad is a very fierce person to some cousins when we were younger. Its rather a very sorrow feeling to share.

I feel down for no reason and not feeling any good. I'm going somewhere and spend some time alone.

P/S: I think I have Philophobia.

Somebody Call 911

2009-11-29T02:26:00.004+08:00

Forget the uber recent heartbreak.

I'm above cloud 9 now.

I just received a phone call.

A significant one, as important like getting calls from AFS Emergency numbers, US Embassy, international calls, whatever.

I feel glee.

Wheeeeee..

Beyond happy.

Earlier today, Paulo Coelho mention on his twitter; RT @paulocoelho: 28/11 Happiness is a myth, joy a state of mind. Pursue joy.

I'm pursuing joy because of someone, for the first time.

Marshmallow cake from Zen by Secret Recipe coming right up! Its been a promise that must be fulfilled. =)

I don't typically break promises. I make them real.

Goodbye My Lover

2009-11-27T22:51:00.005+08:00

Note to self: This will be read by everyone and therefore I strive not to disclose excessive flow of details that would tarnish any rapport as my name is probably Google-able now.

According to my iTunes that has about 3842 songs, there are at least 267 songs that is associated with the word "Love" once I key in the search bar.

Just like a dream, you know.

I hereby let you go.

And the new not-even-related dream is I want to go to The University of Liverpool to study Communication, Media and Popular Music under Department of Politics, which would only happen if I could find a sponsor.

Even though some may notice my obsessive compulsive spending disorder may wonder where the money comes but truth be told whatever I get from my parents been saved and add a bit with a lump of study loan and extensive hunt for discount and sales helps.

You Know What They Do To Guys Like Us In Prison

2009-11-26T11:24:00.005+08:00

If I don't write anything now, I might just not even write anything at all. Its been a while and I get silly too sometimes.

I stoopidly bought Starbucks Toffee Nut Frappuccino Ice Blended Coffee instead of Sunsilk Anti Breakage Shampoo which I stoopidly left in 1926 Heritage Hotel in Prince of Wales Island while rushing out to another hotel during AFS camp.

The coffee cost twice than the original price of the small shampoo bottle.

Going back from the gym I was cheated again by capitalist system of consumerism. I ended up buying Herbal Essence and Cadbury Bournville 45% Dark Chocolate which costed triple than the original shampoo bottle.

I'm a bloody obsessive compulsive buyer, and I'm not happy with the GST suggestion by capitalism-ass-kissing-govern-whoops-ment.

I'm in LOVE with The Catcher In The Rye. Its as amazing as The Curious Incident of The Dog In The Night-Time.

More distance relatives on Facebook. FML.

Positive Tension

2009-11-18T00:30:00.003+08:00

I was about to write and went even lazier. Truth be told, I don't mean that I want more followers and etc as what have been mentioned in the previous post but mere observations from other bloggers; as in I've seen people started to blog and write nonsense to gain popularity.

Nevertheless, I seek nothing because really this is the kind of space where I can write whatever I want and not have anyone criticize me as its a personal journal and nothing commercial. However, it would be good to be sponsored by certain companies or organization to promote something and get paid. Side income, no?

The week has been really running away and I've been doing too many things in the last 5 days. Its going crazy and I don't even have any space in my mind or fingers to write upon the details. Maybe later? Regardless of that, I would like to promote my friend's band called Definitely Maybe.

Click here for their official Myspace site here.

Help my friends band to peform at KL Live this December! Currently, they are in top 7 of the Gundu chart! Help them by downloading Caller Ringtones (ONLY for CELCOM customer currently)

Type *118# & go for "channel x" ! find Call Me Tones (CMT)

Song code: 69757

Alternatively, visit www.channelx.com.my> MUSIC 7 > click Call Me Tones in the search box, and type "Definitely Maybe"

And no, I'm not getting paid to promote this.

A White Demon Love Song

2009-11-08T12:33:00.002+08:00

I realize that aging made me lazier, more or less on ongoing things and therefore I have not been updating myself on this blog as much as I wanted too.

And perhaps, I'm not too famous to be in demand whereby people would be dying to know about my updates. But then again, its not about blabbing things to the world but it really is supposed to be a personal space to write about self. I've noticed how much of glitz and glams of the local netizen have been going all hyped on.

"Must get more followers"

"Must be famous"

Bleh. Yadda yadda.

Off to the beach. Yippe.

I Wanna Grow Old With You

2009-11-03T11:08:00.001+08:00

Its a special day and not many remembers as much I expected.

Perhaps too much expectations?

Also the day this blog turns 100 posts, aside from the older (now private) one with about 431 posts.

To those who remembers I sincerely thank you.

Indie Rock and Roll

2009-11-01T00:08:00.004+08:00

Its been a whole long exciting and productive week. If you happen to be friends with me on Facebook, you can have a peek at the exciting photos happening around.

View the week-long fun here.

I'm off to my hometown, the great island and will keep writing more if that is anyone ever interested. Its rather personal writing sometimes. About friends but dedicated to strangers..

Choux Pastry Heart

2009-10-24T02:37:00.003+08:00

If you ever bothered you will read this. Or at least, if you have ever, been interested in my life which isn't a big thing but mere different than the ordinary. Nothing special, really.

Saturday 24th October;

Evening - Tea with US Ambassador

Night - Gala Dinner at Nikko Hotel

Sunday - Thursday

Training for Trainers at Grand Dorsett, Subang with fellow YES Alumni from various countries. Wanna know more about YES? Go watch Field Trip USA on 8TV. You can watch it online here. Been there, done that. The best 6 month of my life in USA.

I was in Tulsa, Oklahoma. What so great about the place? Everything. It feels more like USJ in a way, but with extra tornado warnings on television while watching South Park uncensored.

I was in musical too, called Guys and Dolls. Its amazing to be on a broadway show in high school.

Thursday

Airport run at KLIA. We love this because we love EVERYTHING that has to do with anything that flies. Airline brands, airline codes, airport codes, cabin crews, pilots, Boeing, Airbus, you name it we know it.

You can catch me on Facebook, or Twitter. If you plan to add please let me know who you are and where you found me. I don't add strangers for no reason.

Love Takes Two

2009-10-21T17:08:00.005+08:00

Its really hard to choose between these.

US$43? This is a steal!

and

Argh. I can't set my mind straight. I'm about to pay for the first one now.

If you don't know me yet, Hello! I have craze over brands and designers label.

Violet Hill

2009-10-20T16:22:00.002+08:00

I was approached by a stranger asking me, what race I was.

And that don't just happens once. In fact, it happens a lot more. So glad I was with people being confused about what I really am.

Does it ever matter?

This Can't Be Love

2009-10-17T15:32:00.009+08:00

Home is when you can have jiwang moment with low fat milk with koko krunch, omelet with cheese and unlimited Milo and Curry Maggi and chocolates while watching MTV.

Plus, with your cat wanting you to spank it and feed it with food. And your ever comfortable, ever-surviving bantal busuk avoiding u from waking up for the day.

Off I go to make chocolate chip cookies with extra chocolate chips!

Ta.

Deepavali Vanakam to all friends!

p/s: yes I know I should have made muruku but I have no recipe! but enjoy this video.

Nobody's Home

2009-10-16T00:52:00.003+08:00

I am home.

I had Char Kuey Teow too.

I came home with dad, on dad's friend's car. A Kompressor C200. Which went so fast, I drooled when I slept. These does not happen often, the joy ride I mean.

When we went into dad's Waja it all felt different. A Bolehland car.

Bolehland metal crap.

Mum is at somewhere in the city for some conference, which I deliberately wouldn't care much as long she is happy. Also, appears on national tv news this weeklong.

I am home.

I have Ben, the last living cat. He is white. Given by neighbor's friend. His twin, Pee Dee is gone and so has Billie Brown =/

I am home.

Good night.

And if you are in this amazing island of great food, please let me know so we can hang out and I wont be too socially deprived.

The Wordless

2009-10-14T21:11:00.004+08:00

What would you do when the people around you, whom constitutionally could be considered the only people you have trust in, in your current demographic location, destructively started to ditch and abandon you whilst you had prior engagement with them the day before?

Or at least few hours before. Thy came upon stories of lost of ways to destination and appeared having mere fun which doesn't make sense, when hunting for parking lot takes longer hour on a busy weekday.

Its not the first time.

It all seemed like a planned conspiracy, while later during the day everyone posted their gleeful moments on Facebook status.

Oh. what. a. joy.

At least when you don't fundamentally over-attribute the situation and suspend judgements you get to know later that everything was due to bad coverage.

But then again, when you struggle to make contact no one attempts to make any.

Good Morning Baltimore

2009-10-13T20:12:00.004+08:00

Well its morning there now by the time my fingers dancing on these keyboards. I'm awful. I just woke up from a nightmare bitch-slapping a friend whom happened to be the center of a drama going on with other friends and the unfortunate institution i am in. Since I'm rather google-able I rather not elaborate on this.

Anyway, I'm shattered because these friends called me only twice but I was sleeping soundly therefore I missed out chances to go dinner with them. It broke my heart even more because this hidden place in an unknown kampung has Air Ceria which is mere soda water with vanilla ice cream and syrup and I fell in love with it first time and never been there anymore since I don't possess any form of strong transportation to maneuver about.

Earlier today, I was out with friends whom just about to go for another paper. We headed to The Mines because its the nearest to us. We entertained ourselves at the arcade like little children playing Daytona and basketball and it felt good. I had not enjoyed so much this semester and this ending is rather neat.

Yesterday, I went out with an old friend whom I knew while working at British India. He is now working for Valiram Group which pays even better and he is enjoying it. We went around the city before I head to meet my mum and her friends, some pak cik and mak cik and stayed over at non-furnished newly bought Hampshire Residence.

Thank god its not weekend, otherwise I would wanna jump down to the crowd! It was great meeting up with my mum because each time I go home its never long and this is quite a privilege to spend a short time with her; though I am going home this week but she will be in KL and my dad was supposedly travel elsewhere for work.

It was on 23A floor and overlooking Jalan Yap Kwan Send and youknowwhatclub youbequiet. The unit was bought for the friend of my mum by her son who now happens to be an AIDS specialist/consultant. I told my mum I will get her something, more or less, about the same.

Growing up with both privileges and challenges and amazing people from everywhere taught me one big thing. Never forget, ultimately, the mother.

I shall proceed and update over weekend funs. It was slow start towards amazing ending. If you happened to be lucky enough (or unfortunate) to be on my Facebook you may see random updates going on over the weekends.

Dance Floor Anthem

2009-10-09T19:07:00.007+08:00

Now that I am free from exam it makes no difference since most of my othercollege friends are still tied until Wednesday. Its my worse unproductive Friday ever, plus now that exam is over and most friends left for home already. Usually I would crash my oldest school friend Ding's place around KLCC but he's having break or some sort and is at home in the great island of amazing food.

I'm having intense desire to dance and coincidentally, my other friend Proffan invited me to go over to Barsonic tonight. Pfft. I'm only turning 20 next month so entry is mere No No.

I wish I had a car and I could just drive anywhere and meet other friends anywhere else but here in campus.

Sigh. Off I go for How I Met Your Mother marathon!

If you happen to be bored, lifeless and feeling bleh we should chating on msn or ym. Just drop your add and I'll add you ASAP.

Owh-mee-gee I'm officially socially deprived tonight. WTH. This is so wrong.

At least there is an Open House in Bangsar to look forward for tomorrow. If time permits, I would head to Wisma Bentley and see my friends' band perform.

Relax, Take It Easy.

2009-10-08T18:20:00.002+08:00

I AM OFFICIALLY FREE, for the next 5 weeks before the next semester starts.

I did not do well on Customer Relation paper due to insufficient sleep, and fell asleep for at least 15 minutes in the exam room. A week of rushing for finishing up final projects, then followed by a week of exam marathon in the morning hour has not been the best thing in life. As you may know, I'm a nocturnal breed who sleep at 2am the earliest and wake up around lunch. This week I slept around 3-4 am and awaken by 7am with little sleep in the afternoon.

Amazingly, I did not overslept. Thank god for that.

Hopefully, I could maintain my CGPA which is already in the beautiful state condition. If it dropped... well thats another 5 weeks to wait and see.

At this moment I feel rather blank because I did not make any prior international travel arrangement or backpacking trip at all. I did wanted to visit Padang again, but unfortunately the recent earthquake ruined the entire city and beautiful village and land. Even the infamous Ambacang Hotel collapsed but that could be blamed for poor construction regulation too though.

I should be heading to the gym more often after so many weeks of skipping due to sickness which followed up by fasting month and so on.

Its great to be back online to blog although initially I spent my time most on Facebook.

I shall wonder what to do next. Clubbing? Muahahaha.

Operator, The Line Is Dead.

2009-10-04T02:57:00.008+08:00

Done with designing advertisement of baby chair awareness hoo-haa gaga headaches. Crisply done, unfortunately message did not interpreted well. A week of insomnia, sleeping during breakfast hour and waking up at lunch plus not eating anything until around 6pm when it could have been assumed as fasting went to waste without the nawaitu for fasting. I'm not creative enough. 'nuff said.

The unwanted marathon starts Monday with headaches and worries with lack of time to study. However, it ends Thursday so plenty time to enjoy later on. Clubbing, anyone?

or lovely Sunday Brunch at some fancy place like DeliCious.

or road trip to Jonker Street.

Hiatus starts now.

Officially switching ON the ultimate button for every end of semesters;

Student + Dying = Studying.

Perhaps, after almost 11 months of never quite switching OFF this Macbook I should shut it down for a week until exam ends. It has always been on sleep mode all this while.

Appreciate for anyone who accidentally ended up reading this.

Kthnxbye.

Fat Bottomed Girls

2009-10-01T21:09:00.003+08:00

I became aware that the number of follower has increased drastically to 53 and I sincerely appreciate it to those who have become devotee. Although I understand most of the time no one really comes to read or visit I did not expect the number to rose all time high. This space is a personal space to speak and whine and I thank you for the time given to visit.

Frankly, I love reading blogs more than novels lately. Perhaps its because its more real and naturally written and fresh as well. I like to follow good and decent blogs and Google Reader is an amazing and wonderful creation. Today I have 530 updates which I have not viewed yet, which I definitely will.

I've made friends in reality with some bloggers too, and I hope it last. Sometimes, its good to be around people in an entirely different parallel of understanding universe and understand their differences.

I'm out of ideas after brain candy vomited earlier today which did not even produced any good results. I can never be good as anything here.

Don't get offended by the title, its just one of the songs that I like to listen to.

Beautiful Dirty Rick

2009-09-30T22:36:00.002+08:00

I felt that this year, the whole Eid celebration feels like nothing. Perhaps, the excitement comes due to the fact that I'm not staying home which is perhaps almost 434km away.

I just came back from a celebration by Bachelor's student Managerial Communication class event. It was their assignment but I guess it was fun as the Eid celebration comes to live a little bit with the excitement around friends. Obviously I end up bloated now, which defeats the whole purpose of me running on treadmill and bunch of other machines earlier today before heading to The Gardens.

I love stationary and art shop. Not that I'm an artist, but it always nice to see creative things raw. The I would start imagining things that could come alive next, and also those funky party packs and DIY stuffs. The one I always shop at seemed to be really friendly and I'm happy with their services though they don't have any cutting service for mounting boards.

Its amazing to see how drastic Celebrity Fitness taking over California Fitness. While working on some machines there was some shooting of fitness talk show which I have no idea what show it actually is, what tv it will end up on and when it will be aired. It seemed very ASTRO-ish. Its a big challenge to start again from 0 after more than 6 weeks of idle. I got myself back on track after feeling too loose and lazy while I'm always happier to be fit. A month of fasting and a week of gastronomical indulgence ruined it all.

At present, I only know few bloggers who goes there such as Ikram, Eric and even activist Marina Mahathir. The two guys goes usually after working hour while Marina usually go in the morning.

I was on my way waiting for the shuttle bus by the highway when the big major earthquake happened in South of Sumatra. Earlier on, I was watching on CNN while running on treadmill about tsunami that struck over Samoan Islands where 55 perished in Samoa and another 22 in American Samoa. The number rose to 89 as according to The New York Times by now.

My prayers be with the victim and the survivors. On the other hand Typhoon Ketsana are hitting hard on Indochina and the Philippines. Hopefully people will survive, or at least most than some.

After spending mere hour in Borders browsing through Parenting and Advertising sections I'm still rather hungry for ideas on how to create awareness of a baby chair, without the baby chair in the advertisement poster. Do suggest if you happen to have ideas.

Please, and thank you.